Spiritual Growth and Why it Can Feel Like You Are Going Backwards

If you know that we are all connected, that we are vibrational beings and that we get to create our own reality, you are what is termed ‘enlightened’. Because you know these things, you are no doubt making an effort to behave more positively as a result, but that doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll immediately kiss goodbye to meltdowns. Whatever form a ‘meltdown’ might take for you, be it an outright tantrum, a period of low mood, or plain and simply having an episode of projecting your emotions onto someone else, you don’t need to feel that the new improved you isn’t doing well or being authentic.Spiritual growth and why it can feel like you are going backwards

It’s very normal for enlightened people to feel they could (or even should) be doing better and to be hard on themselves when they veer off their path of mindful positivity. That’s because they are cognisant of how important it is to be all those good things in order to attract amazing things into their lives. They consider episodes of negativity to be unhelpful. But if you think about it, that in itself is a form of judgement – and that’s an old ego driven behaviour. In fact, meltdowns absolutely have their place in your journey of personal growth.

As you set your intention to raise your vibration and stay in a good place for more of the time, the Universe responds by helping you clear out the ‘stuff’ that would keep your vibrational frequency low. By ‘stuff’ I mean any limiting beliefs, past hurts, or negative emotions you might still be holding onto on some level. Because the Universe responds to how you are feeling and in particular, your ‘overall emotional average’, this stuff needs to be gone if you are going to reach your vibrational potential. Think of a yacht moving through water dragging its anchor – you are the yacht and the ‘stuff’ is the anchor. It’s going to slow you down. From a vibrational perspective, you can only go so far while you are carrying that stuff with you.

In fact, it is possible that the closer you get to living your ‘perfect’ and enlightened life, the worse your low moments will feel to you. That’s because you are probably now in a good place for a lot of the time and a much happier place than you once were. If you understand how wonderful it feels to be in alignment with your higher self, is it any wonder it feels disproportionately bad when you fall out of that great feeling place? You are going from one extreme to another, so of course it’s going to feel bad!

But you don’t need to let meltdowns wobble your confidence in what you are trying to achieve. Actually, it’s much more comfortable to just trust that they are all part of the process to get you where you want to be. Meltdowns always provide you with information and information is invaluable. The best thing you can do for yourself is seek to understand your little moment of despair, frustration or anger and act upon it when you are ready.

Don’t feel that you are being inauthentic or slipping backwards; instead validate and console yourself by acknowledging you still have some healing to be do. Dig deep for the nugget that is the loaded trigger or the remnant of pain inside you, and be appreciative for finding it. Addressing and releasing it can only help propel you to where you want to be.

If you are learning to become a master of the Law of Attraction, try not to feel that you are failing and that life was easier before you knew what you know now. Trust me when I say that over time, as you work through the ‘stuff’ that no longer serves you, you’ll find that the meltdowns become fewer and farther between.


  1. Fiona Heppell on May 31, 2018 at 9:07 pm

    Good blog Kate , I was just having one of those moments and gosh am I hard on myself !!!!I have two very exhausting appointments at work today and have a talk to prepare for Monday .I did some meditation , ate tea and flopped ! So it’s off to bed , listen to my body and trust It will all come together . Have to remember it’s ok to feel not ok sometimes and it’s about progress not perfection .

  2. Kate Healey on July 15, 2018 at 9:02 pm

    You are so right Fi! x

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